Love

Why is it, that each time someone thinks, they may love somebody?
It turns into something that everyone, even the one that you love decided they actually hate you.
I'm of course the one who thinks love is irrelevant.
It's just something that justifies how others can treat each other.
Even the child, may be subjected to mistreatment
All in the sake that they say they love you.
It's a load of crap
They tell the child to clean the house and do this and that.
When they get home
They may say they love you
But the yell and scream at you later because their life didn't turn out how they wanted it to be.
That's the thing, why is it that the ones they love most have to suffer because their stressing.
Or because their hurt.
It's not the child's fault or the mother's that your life sucked
Or that your failing a class.
If you want to take it out on somebody
Take it out on yourself
Your the idiot; it's your problem not others.
So, love what is it really?
Is it really what everyone says, or is it just a word to justify; what they do because they love you?
I for one am sick and tired of people justifying what they do; by saying one dang word
They'll say I love you one second and in the next they'll yell and scream or hurt you all in the sake of they love you.
Or even starve their own children or dress them up as a boy
All for the sake of love
So does love really make everything all right?

true outlook

Head ringing
people screaming
No one wanting to help
the injured on the ground
left to rot by others
friends
family
leaving their loved ones behind
no one caring just leaving behind real people
living breathing people
but in their state they dont care
its them or us is thier outlook
not them and us
you commited a crime but u dont care its all the same
u are worried about yourself and not others
ask this
if you were hurt
on the ground
screaming for help
would u want them to help
or leave u behind to save themselves.
Its like this everyday
everyone sees trouble and runs
not wanting to help
those in danger
not even if it was a child
u may say you would
but we all know that is a lie
if it was u or a child would u actually save them
or would u leave because u wanted to live
i think that most people would leave that child
but their might be some people who would save that child
in exchange for theirs.

puppet

Life goes by
in a flash
Nothing changes
its like the rest
everyone is the same
Nothing different
just the same outlook
no one person different
everyone is like a puppet
being controlled by the same person
with the same ideals
and the same personality
we are empty
just like pinochio
wanting to be a real boy
we want the same
we want to be alive.
Instead of this emptiness we feel.
Instead we want to experience all things
instead of being controlled by the puppet master.
We want to rebel against the feeling of emptiness
we want the feeling
the feeling to be alive
not of being dead.

what the heck

You say my bad
I didnt mean to hurt you
really now
what happened to
"I would never hurt you"
What happened to "i love you so much"
Then you dump me for some girl you just saw and are like"Its not you its me"
What the heck
Okay let me get this straight
you love her?
but you never thought
that i would catch along?
Along to what you say
you cheating
oh you thought I was oblivious
of course i knew you were cheating
Its kinda hard not to tell when you have lipstick stains on your tshirt
and its not even my brand
what the heck
Okay so dont come crawling to me saying "It was a mistake"
Cause I know better than to trust you
After all this girl will only last a second
it is on your application sheet after all
So when you go to her make sure
She doesnt know the truth
and by the way about the stuff i borrowed
sorry about that my dog slobbered it
as well as other things
I guess my dog was right from the begginning
you aint worth it.

annoying

You being me
Me being you
try to be me for a day
even a minute
and i will congratulate you
What was that about switching places
you couldnt even take my pain and ensarement of my everyday
So about that are you sure you want to try
Dont even try that pity me crap
When im talking about myself
and first of all were you even in this conversation
no
so why is it that you come over here
talking about your story
did i even ask to hear it?
No
So yeah about that when im in a one to one conversation with people that actually
do care id rather not be interupted by some snob
that says pitty me
pitty me
pretty much
If you can take on what i go through
get back to me
if not sit down
turn around
and shut up
ta ta

by proxy

The light flickers
on off on off
but the one thing beside me
on my bed
is my lover
never to be my actual husband
he belongs to her name only
he belongs to me heart only
nothing more and nothing less
he might be beside me now
But he will never be mine
entirely
i will always be jealous
never to have hime for myself
I have to share with that thing that woman
but thats alright with me
because i have him  in bed
she has him only at the kitchen table
nothhing more and nothing less

Freedom

To make it clear
I will never come back
To this place
I call hell
It maybe your home but it will never be mine
I will take this place and erase it forever
from my heart and mind
and i will be free of this place for good
its my home of course
You say that
but it isnt
its a prison you incage me in
I will never be free until i die
But now that i have a plan
I can fly free of the fiery depths
I called home and take to the skies where the real love i want and needed
Are there
This isnt my real home it was just a fabrication of what you wanted
And not my own
So these skies i fly
are left with the debris of the memory of my home

Blue and green ocean

The color of the sea
turns green and blue
But forever and ever will my tears be transparent
You will never get to see them
And I will Always look back on your solice of me
I just wish you would look at me
but instead my tears track down my cheeks
To leave a trail on my face and pillow
My hiccups are heard throughout the house
But no one comes to my aid
All you do is yell and shout at me not to leave the house
My face is littered with abuse
And  yet no one comes to my aid
not even my mother who permeated me into this world
But all that happens is me on the floor crying
With bruises covering me head to toe
With no one else to turn to
I turn to the sky for help but no help comes
So im left alone with nothing to do but be the punching bag for my father
And be the one that begs my mom leave him
But instead I get more licks in from the one I loved the most
So my heart has been stabbed several times
So all im left with is a hollow body
And everyone around me turns into dust
With me left
With no where else to go
I let myself be free of everything including guilt
shame
hatred
and even sadness
so all thats left is a sack of bones for thosethat i once loved to hit.

party!!!!!!

we party
we party
we all throw our hands up
but at last the fun is over
when the door opens up
you see great distress in the eyes of your friends
when they see your parents
standing in front of the den
you run and hide
to see your friends running out of the house
there screaming and yelling
for you to come out
but you stay still as a board
until your dad
pops up and tells you to come here
so reluctantly you leave
the loving space
to find theres a belt in each of their hands
They scream and yell
to clean up the house
and if it happens agian
you will be kicked out the house
so you scrub
you scrub
until the house is clean
but there is still more to do
to keep your parents happy
even if i get paddled im happy
you see
cause that was the greatest party
that happened in history

chase

Its running
im running as fast as i can
but to my dismay
it catches me in the end
its a huge rat
thats what i think
and it has sharp claws
and tripped me
i think
i think
far from this place
so i wont feel the sting of the crimson claws
so i sit back
relax
and enjoy the show
but it is not happy or sad
its happening to me
and its not a dream
at least i know it isnt
cause the sting of the claws
brought me to reality
when it stabbed me in the chest and ate me
so forever and ever i wait
until finally it stopped and ran away
i sit there and wait
to see my family crying in dismay
when they see me dead
and all i see is a black casket waiting for me
so i sleep
i sleep
and never wake
to be happy agian in my safest place

Everybody working for the weekend

Everybody working for the weekend
with a great big smile at your local walmart
they greet you
they "love" you
its your own family consumer store
if your hurt the will take care of you
it's your number one family consumer store
and it was built just for you
so if you have anything you need come to local stores near you
okay weird thing about it is were in your store now
theres no need to put your stupid jingle on your television when were already here
yeah and the workers already know what there supposed to do on the weekends so dont remind them or us of what is expected at the store

hipocrocy

You criticize everything that i do
just for once i want to be myself
not a doll
that you get a muse from
and have to be dressed
like you want me to
your a hipocrite of everyhting i do
is it not enough that i love you
what more do you want from me
because i cant take this anymore
so if you really love me
love me
not this doll you created for you own entertainment
because if you this much more
i will end this charade
and throw all the things you wanted me to be back in your face
you can keep them
and give them to someone else
not me
because i cant do this anymore
im running away

Fight

Th bloody fist
that came to my face
blacked my eye
and made me cry
with great attempt i struggled
to at least make it through
but agian and agian he striked
and again and again i stumbled
to be on the dirt once more
my face dirty and wet
i stood on my feet again and again
to at least try to get a hit in
but i failed each time
each time i tried
i just met a face full of stone
and a heart that was ice cold
At last the bombardment faltered
and i was on top for once
and he was the one that was on the ground crying
and i was the one winning
so in all this pain and suffering
i got on top not him
and he was the one crying not me
so when all is said and done
he didnt last long
for he fell in a trench
and i got the last laugh

The farytale ending

My eyesight dims
And the world goes dark
After all i just got stabbed in the heart
By my one true love
My only prince
He will never forget my face agian
Or cheat on me in the end
Even if he has a girl
I will forever be in his mind
With love and the tears of this last night
In the corner the prince shakes
He's gasping and heaving
While on the phone
I guess he called the cops
After awhile
But as it grows ever darker
All i see now are shades of my once happy groom
But after all he is happy now
He doesn't have to live with me
And put on a fake smile
So as he cries out my name
"Sharon, Sharon"
I reach out my hand and whisper
"It's okay my prince everything will be okay"
As Sharon's last words reach my ears i laugh in triumph
I don't have to marry her anymore
And most importantly the money is mine
HAHAHAH
But as my laughing turns into tears i stare lifeless as a doll
And wait for my punishment
Of killing the princess of this beloved kingdom

Eagle

I fly in the sky
Like a bird about to catch its prey
If you think you can escape
You can try to evade
But when all is done my food
Will be on a plate
And the world will be in my grasp
Even if you want to run
You can't
Cause if you do i will shake the world
With my claw like hand
And you will be the one within a cage
Cause i'm the owner
And your pets
Now play dead Garry
And fetch, Alex

My Prince

My heart beats for my prince
But my prince ran
When he saw the dragon
Now i'm left here all alone
Even though the prince was supposed to rescue me
Instead i'm left inside this castle
Fendinng for myself
Until my real prince comes
But each day passes with failed attempts
And my heart keeps longing for my one true prince
And to look upon the sky outside this castle
But as i grow older i see i wont be saved
So insead of waiting
I'm gonna make it out my own way

ash

Dreams turn to ash
as i see past the lies
all the dreams that were supposed to come true
became hazed in comparison
so as the lies pile up
you will forever stay in my heart
even if you lie and betray
i will stay here forever in your arms
so when the arms turn cold
i will beg you to stay
but what do you say
you say leave me alone
your a parasite, a fly, a annoying little girl
but even as you push away
you will forever be my brother
my father
my mother
and my slave
so if you leave me
i will perish into flames

alabater

With alabaster post
and sleek furnishings
I amaze at the thought
I will forever stay in this house
and call it home
with my family living inside
And my in laws
staying there for eternity
i will forever be the slave
of a hunchback of notredome
in my house of alabaster

Happy times

The sun is setting
But I don't want to leave
Cause today Is the day
That they have to leave
So I prolong the fun
As much as I can
I play chase
I eat
I have fun with my family
On this wonderful sandy beach
But to my dismay the day is up
And its time for my brother and sister to go
But I will forever remember this day and the wonderful sunset that presented itself
On this fun and happy day

paper right

The sheets of paper all around

i wish they would leave me 

so that i wont be haunted by the dreams of yesterday

but instead i am plagued 

plagued by the ink and paper that will forever surround me 

And the thing that roams my room 

forever whining about the bloody smell that accompanies the ink

but i will forver write my dreams and thoughts on paper

and my stories will forever plague me 

but in the long run my stories will be covered in dust 

to never be read 

and to never have the bloody smell accompany them to there new home 

i will forever have this smell

and write my stories on millions of pages 

even if the ghosts plague me 

for killing there friend 

or disregarding them 

i will continue on in my dilusional paper right