what the heck

You say my bad
I didnt mean to hurt you
really now
what happened to
"I would never hurt you"
What happened to "i love you so much"
Then you dump me for some girl you just saw and are like"Its not you its me"
What the heck
Okay let me get this straight
you love her?
but you never thought
that i would catch along?
Along to what you say
you cheating
oh you thought I was oblivious
of course i knew you were cheating
Its kinda hard not to tell when you have lipstick stains on your tshirt
and its not even my brand
what the heck
Okay so dont come crawling to me saying "It was a mistake"
Cause I know better than to trust you
After all this girl will only last a second
it is on your application sheet after all
So when you go to her make sure
She doesnt know the truth
and by the way about the stuff i borrowed
sorry about that my dog slobbered it
as well as other things
I guess my dog was right from the begginning
you aint worth it.

annoying

You being me
Me being you
try to be me for a day
even a minute
and i will congratulate you
What was that about switching places
you couldnt even take my pain and ensarement of my everyday
So about that are you sure you want to try
Dont even try that pity me crap
When im talking about myself
and first of all were you even in this conversation
no
so why is it that you come over here
talking about your story
did i even ask to hear it?
No
So yeah about that when im in a one to one conversation with people that actually
do care id rather not be interupted by some snob
that says pitty me
pitty me
pretty much
If you can take on what i go through
get back to me
if not sit down
turn around
and shut up
ta ta

by proxy

The light flickers
on off on off
but the one thing beside me
on my bed
is my lover
never to be my actual husband
he belongs to her name only
he belongs to me heart only
nothing more and nothing less
he might be beside me now
But he will never be mine
entirely
i will always be jealous
never to have hime for myself
I have to share with that thing that woman
but thats alright with me
because i have him  in bed
she has him only at the kitchen table
nothhing more and nothing less

Freedom

To make it clear
I will never come back
To this place
I call hell
It maybe your home but it will never be mine
I will take this place and erase it forever
from my heart and mind
and i will be free of this place for good
its my home of course
You say that
but it isnt
its a prison you incage me in
I will never be free until i die
But now that i have a plan
I can fly free of the fiery depths
I called home and take to the skies where the real love i want and needed
Are there
This isnt my real home it was just a fabrication of what you wanted
And not my own
So these skies i fly
are left with the debris of the memory of my home

Blue and green ocean

The color of the sea
turns green and blue
But forever and ever will my tears be transparent
You will never get to see them
And I will Always look back on your solice of me
I just wish you would look at me
but instead my tears track down my cheeks
To leave a trail on my face and pillow
My hiccups are heard throughout the house
But no one comes to my aid
All you do is yell and shout at me not to leave the house
My face is littered with abuse
And  yet no one comes to my aid
not even my mother who permeated me into this world
But all that happens is me on the floor crying
With bruises covering me head to toe
With no one else to turn to
I turn to the sky for help but no help comes
So im left alone with nothing to do but be the punching bag for my father
And be the one that begs my mom leave him
But instead I get more licks in from the one I loved the most
So my heart has been stabbed several times
So all im left with is a hollow body
And everyone around me turns into dust
With me left
With no where else to go
I let myself be free of everything including guilt
shame
hatred
and even sadness
so all thats left is a sack of bones for thosethat i once loved to hit.